The powerful journey of living with PTSD after sexual assault.

Be Anyway

I remembered to eat today
Without being told
I didn’t second guess my hunger Why should I, I’m far too old
To turn my pain into something I feel Only I control
I might do something
If I was bold

I remembered to breathe today Before it got too hard
I didn’t hyperventilate
So that’s a start

I recognized the warning signs Of my racing heart
I’m far too busy anyway
To fall apart

No it’s not a cry for help
I know you’re worried about my health But I promise that I’m okay
Or at least I will be anyway

Did I mention yet
I cleaned myself last night
I waited as long as a could
Before I had to see the sight
Of hands moving on my skin Though my own, it doesn’t feel right So I’ll just let the water water
Until my skin feels tight

Did I mention yet
I got some sleep last night
For two full hours I was out like a light But I woke up from that dream again Clutching my pocket knife
Couldn’t fall asleep again
So I just got high

No it’s not a cry for help
I know you’re worried about my health But I promise that I’m okay
Or at least I will be anyway

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